we'd like to know why you bought hair for $710... i like the picture i'll be honest about that.

things are weird.
i don't feel like i'm myself any more.
i'm sinking lower and lower into this hole that i've dug myself.
now things are just getting out of control.
i can't breathe.
i'm trying to dig out of this hole but i am yet to see the light at the end of the tunnel. i'm the canary not the coal mine. i'll die before i can get out... the coalmine is my world, crumbling down on me.
i'm trying i swear. its just getting hard.
it always gets harder before it gets easier. i'm trying.

this made me really happy.


Sunday, March 16, 2008
you can have it all, my empire of dirt
life is more than alright when you let yourself know it. theres not a hole in your head or your heart if you dont want there to be. its funny how people get nostalgic for the worst times in your life. people sometimes seem to miss the person i was when i was just in a self hating haze or fantasize that i miss or should miss someone who made me feel as worthwhile as a pile of dirt and spent their entire life decieving me. thanks to my friends who have let me grow into something new. i am listening to blues. i am having great conversations with friends. i am writing. i am walking the dog. i lying in the sun. i am riding a motorcycle. i am lauging. i am being in love.
posted by xo at 10:28 PM

well k the motorcycle thing is funny bahahaha. i still cant see him on a motorcycle tbqh haha hes too little.

i'd also like some information about this whole baby thing, i still think he's just being... pete ha and its not real but who knows.

it looks like goodbye blues isn't coming out here this week or ever... i can't even download it this blows so much.

perez hilton is turning 30 this week... weird.

and some of the videos that are shown on television these days are redic. i have a huge rant about much music on my livejournal but yeah the music video that was just on was terrible. so degrading to the women in it. why do people do things like this its something i'll never understand.


wow there are a lot of really bad movies coming out:| anyways so yeah this is what i want. its perfect. its everything i want. its like a sidekick but its not. its got a camera, a keyboard its cute. i love it ites like really expensive though but i really want it so hopefully one day :)



bahahaha devon is a gokart driver.... this is cute actually.
im trying to upload some pics from heather's house.

this is how we do.
it was really fun. actually no it was SUPAAAAAH FUN =) lol i loveeeed it.
it was so nice to actually talk about fall out boy and watch fall out boy related things and do stuff together because no one else like likes fall out boy now haha so its awesome.

Roman Holiday. this movie is really good. i think its just because i like audrey hepburn. although i've only seen this and breakfast at tiffany's. but i'm seriously going to have an audrey hepburn movie day one day. shes so beautiful and shes an amazing actress. so you should watch movies with her in them. shes so elegant. i wish i was her. (well back in the day not now because she's dead now). movies are definately like... not as good now it kinda sucks.


I want a love like this. its so everlasting. be my jack? (except I don't want them to die obviously ha...) this is such a beautiful picture and a beautiful movie. you can't help but fall in love with Jack.There is no girl I know that wouldn't melt at Jack Dawson's feet. This is such a beautiful movie.

I'm a sucker for romantic movies... honestly they are the best kind.
come watch one with me.

my blog hasnt been updated in forever im sorry.
blahhhhh.

xo